My Dear Readers-
Something that I struggle with is finding the balance between school and a personal life. I am five years into my career as a teacher and so by now I should know what I'm doing, right? And yet, I still find myself pulling the 10, 11, or 12 hour days and working just as hard as I did my first year. There are some things that are getting easier; I have a better grasp of the subjects taught and the content in them. I know more about what students can reasonably do and what we can get done in a day. And I know more about what what is expected from me.
I think my problem is that I'm not satisfied with what or how I'm teaching. I think that even though we do have things already prepared, I am looking for ways to improve, to expand, to clarify, and to add. It seems like I can't get through a year without wanting to redo everything that I did to make it better.
A good problem, right? But in doing so and wanting to "remake" my class every year, I find that it takes a lot of time to do so. Where, then, is the balance between giving all my free time to redoing lessons and making them better and just continuing what I did last year so that I can have something that resembles a personal life? I suppose that at some point there has to be a time where I say that I can't do more than I'm already doing and am just going to have to recycle lessons used last year. I feel defeated in doing so, but I guess reasonably there just isn't enough time in the day to do everything that I could do. That seems like a rather elementary thought.
Thanks for reading the ramble. I feel better now.